I’ve been busy to the point that I got pretty socially isolated from everyone — part because I’ve been too busy but also part is because of me feeling stressed and tired — I feel guilty for living like this. I could have used my time better. I haven’t been out for social things at all for the past month and this will go on for another month due to my schedule. It seems almost stressful to get back to proper life later, I’ve been so use to this.

I’ve been so packed with a monotonous sort of schedule and I’ve been so alone.. that I’ve been feeling a bit jaded. I also haven’t gone around to make new playlists. Just listening to the same ones during transport to the point of me getting to use to it. Not feeling much of a spark⋆ˊˎ-•̩̩͙- *̩̩̥͙..

Listening to old playlists takes me back. It makes me realise that I’ve been quite soulless recently lol. I haven’t really been in touch with my own feelings. That said, there wasn’t much to even feel anyway. I’ve been jaded and tired with life. But luckily, songs still exist to bring back my deepest and strongest emotions. For that, I am very grateful:)

I like songs that I can listen to when I’m angry or sad.

Rarely do I feel angry, but there’s still this one (and only one) playlist that I have that I’ve made about anger. Even when I don’t feel angry sometimes I listen to it when I feel intense. The songs kinda drag out, have strong high pitched beats and are pretty rhythmic. It reminds me of anger, that strong yet suppressed calmness of emotionally resonated clarity of strength? Lots of adjectives to describe another adjective as they are all linked together. A numbingly intense sort of relief.

Sad love songs too. There’s this sentimentality and complexity about them. It’s never 100% sad. Courage, hope, pride, gentleness, nostalgia, regret, selflessness, selfishness. I love all these tinges of emotions that sad songs easily have.

Happy songs too. The all out-ness. Upbeat vibrancy. Energy.

There’s so much to so many songs that I like.